Probably?  I’m waiting for a referral from my general practitioner to see a specialist so they can assess whether or not I have inflammatory bowel disease.  The “good news” is that this is a continuation of the colitis that sent me to the ER, so 1) we know basically WHAT it is and just need to narrow down the specifics so we can assess how bad it is and how to treat it, and 2) it is WAY milder than the colitis that sent me to the ER, thank god (only intermittent bleeding, no abdominal pain that makes it very unpleasant to stand up, etc.).

I just have a bug up my ass about how much muscle tone I lost while I was unable to exercise while recovering from the last episode of colitis, which I realize intellectually is probably really stupid, but I’m super good at rationalizing things and ignoring physical discomfort so I’m currently fighting with myself about how bad an idea it is to exercise with the symptoms I’m having (“It doesn’t HURT much, so how bad can it be?” “Except that regardless you are BLEEDING INTERNALLY.”  ”Yeah, but just INTERMITTENTLY, and not as much as last time.  Plus, exercise can boost immunity!” “Except that if this is an auto-immune thing that might do more harm than good.” “But if I keep exercising while I still can, then if it gets bad again maybe I won’t lose as much muscle tone”, etc.).  

I am the first person to admit that I am exhausting to deal with, lol.

demonsparrow
demonsparrow:

zerostatereflex:

Not everyone sees the same color when they stare at this spinning disk.
The gif is called, “Benham’s disk" "is named after the English toymaker Charles Benham, who in 1895 sold a top painted with the pattern shown. When the disk is spun, arcs of pale color, called Fechner colors or pattern-induced flicker colors (PIFCs), are visible at different places on the disk. Not everyone sees the same colors."
"The phenomenon originates from neural activity in the retina and spatial interactions in the primary visual cortex, which plays a role in encoding low-level image features, such as edges and spatiotemporal frequency components."
Fascinating how our brains work, I see a brown tan, what do you see? :D

catastropheeling-good PLEASE EXPLAIN HOW THIS WORKS

It sounds like it’s based in lateral inhibition!  I’ll ask my advisor and lab mates and see if we can come up with a detailed explanation.

demonsparrow:

zerostatereflex:

Not everyone sees the same color when they stare at this spinning disk.

The gif is called, “Benham’s disk" "is named after the English toymaker Charles Benham, who in 1895 sold a top painted with the pattern shown. When the disk is spun, arcs of pale color, called Fechner colors or pattern-induced flicker colors (PIFCs), are visible at different places on the disk. Not everyone sees the same colors."

"The phenomenon originates from neural activity in the retina and spatial interactions in the primary visual cortex, which plays a role in encoding low-level image features, such as edges and spatiotemporal frequency components."

Fascinating how our brains work, I see a brown tan, what do you see? :D

catastropheeling-good PLEASE EXPLAIN HOW THIS WORKS

It sounds like it’s based in lateral inhibition!  I’ll ask my advisor and lab mates and see if we can come up with a detailed explanation.

bizarro-sai replied to your post: “I received a scholarship this year, which is great, but one of the…”:
Ugggghhhh why would they make anyone do that…

Right?  -_-  It’s not that I mind being an introvert, but sometimes I really wish there were extroversion pills I could take for situations like this.  At least there’ll be free food (and they let me specify vegetarian, so there should be stuff I’m able to eat).

rembrandtswife replied to your post: “I received a scholarship this year, which is great, but one of the…”:
THAT IS A CRUEL PRICE TO PAY FOR YOUR SCHOLARSHIP

RIGHT??  It’s almost enough to make me regret accepting the scholarship.  Avoiding awkward social situations is TOTALLY worth $1650 to me.

I get that the idea is to express your gratitude for their generosity, and it’s  not that I’m not grateful, but I ALREADY sent them a (mandatory) thank-you letter.  HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO EXPRESS MY GRATITUDE

I received a scholarship this year, which is great, but one of the conditions upon which you receive the scholarship is attending a mandatory scholarship luncheon, and I reeeeeeaally don’t want to go because it is literally you sitting at a table with the person who donated your scholarship having to make uncomfortable small talk for an hour and a half.

bizarro-sai replied to your post: “The continuing livestream saga: So I conveniently remembered…”:
Thank you for trying! I wasn’t able to stream either until I got this laptop. The whole deal with this kind of tech always confuses/infuriates me, too. Hopefully some time in the future, in the mean time you’re always welcome to join my streams!

Thank you!  I’m actually glad I was able to figure out that it’s a hardware issue and not just a “me being an idiot” issue.  :D  At the same time, I’m kind of annoyed, because this laptop is only about a year old, so I feel like it should be more up-to-date regarding capablities.  (Then again, it was an emergency purchase after one of the cats knocked a glass of water into my previous laptop, so I was more concerned with getting something I could do schoolwork/labwork on immediately than with getting a high-capacity machine.)  This time I’ll have the luxury of doing more research before I decide what to buy, because (at least hopefully) it won’t be a “CRAP, I NEED A LAPTOP RIGHT THIS SECOND” situation.  :D  (My graduate program doesn’t supply us with office computers, so if you don’t have a laptop, you’re kind of screwed.)